Be Happy, Don't Worry.

Don't worry.

Be lively.

Be confident.

Be excited.

Be determined.

Be great.

Be engaged.

Be ambitious.

Be buoyant.

Be hopeful.

Be adventurous.

Be energetic. 

Be cheerful.

Be optimistic.

Be passionate.

Be active.

Be enthusiastic.

Be thoughtful.

Be daring.

Be inspired.

Be brave.

Be powerful.

Be Happy.

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How Beautiful is this? That's out my bedroom window :D

I wrote 'Don't Worry, Be Happy,' and this is the inverse version of that. 

Lulu from Berry Diaries tasked me with writing a positive version, and I must admit I got a little too excited and started immediately. 

I wrote it so quickly and my brain was overflowing with positivity: my exams have just ended and travels to Berlin are fast approaching! 

I think this exercise helped me to focus more on the positive's,

well, here it is.

Do you ever feel incessantly positive?

or is it just me?
hehe

Static.

Hi there,

Today I have spent my time 'surfing the web': reading blogs, blogging, tweeting on Twitter, pinning on Pinterest, generally wasting time, my free time, as I wish. I also did some reading, I'm currently reading Oliver Twist, and am also working my way through A Tale of Two Cities.

I have been listening to the medley of languages loitering outside my door in the corridor, exceeding the recommended dosage, and starting to feel the side effects: frustration mostly, the static is unbearable. 

I got into bed and then I was granted the privilege of listening to the hysterical voices next door loudly scream over one another, correcting and ordering commands to each other. One strums on the guitar while the others attempt to harmonize, I'm guessing that's what they were doing, all at at different pitches, some hitting the notes, others far off. They then argued about whether it is the guitar that is out of tune or their 'accomplished' voices. And they start again, repeating the first line, adjusting their pitch, they are almost all in time too now, perfecting the speed eventually. They are finally fulfilled by their moans. 

Then after what feels like hours, they finally they progress onto the second line. This sequence continues.

I calmly put my headphone's into my ears as tight as they can fit, turn it up, so that the only voice I can hear now is Norah Jones'. 

Just another reason to love boarding school.

via

Spring.

"It is the sun shining on the rain and the rain falling on the sunshine..."
Frances Hodgson Burnett - The Secret Garden

I am always overwhelmed by how beautiful Scotland is.

 

I went for a little walk on Sunday around the school grounds, it was so lovely. It was raining softly, almost like mist, and was overcast but the light was spectacular and everything looked so fresh and full of life.

 

Spring has definitely arrived.

Everything was so mystical and perfect.

We are very lucky to have such a beautiful school.

There are so many baby bunny rabbits, they are a definite sign of Spring, they're everywhere.
Honestly, they must be my favourite thing about Scotland and the countryside.
I feel like I'm in Beatrix Potter's Peter Rabbit's life.

I love it.
I love Scotland.

Done.

Hi there,

It is and will be a wonderful day today.
The sun was sparkling through my window this morning.
It was a lovely wake up call,
despite not wanting a wake up call.

I am finished my exams.

And I will be off to Berlin in ten days with Lydia and then to Paris with all my friends!
I am beyond excited!

It has come so quickly, everything seems to these days.
I am trying to appreciate everything a little more than usual.

It's astounding to me how fast my two years have gone. I remember thinking how long two years would be in my first term here in Scotland.

That first term was the longest sixteen weeks of my sixteen years, I really was as faraway from home as humanly possible. To say that it was difficult for me in the beginning is an understatement of note, but the storm blew over, eventually, and now I am a profoundly different girl.

Through the the experience of school abroad and through my thirteen years of my general school life, I am now a 'young adult,' apparently, ready to face the big bad world all alone.(Not that I have't been for these last two years)

 And now I am wondering where all the time has gone.

I am still trying to contemplate the idea of leaving school,
let alone the reality.

I am very ready to leave school though.

And I am excited and anxious for university;
it will be a challenge but one that I am prepared to take on.

Don't Worry, Be Happy.

Don't worry.

Don't be sad.

Don't be scared.

Don't be disheartened.

Don't be upset.

Don't be shy.

Don't fidget.

Don't be intimidated.

Don't be dismayed.

Don't be nervous.

Don't be suspicious.

Don't waste time. 

Don't be down.

Don't be anxious.

Don't get restless.

Don't be lazy.

Don't be cynical.

Don't be careless.

Don't be cowardly.

Don't be hesitant.

Don't doubt yourself.

Don't be powerless.

Be happy.

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I found this today, it's something I wrote a while ago and never got around to posting. Despite the negativity, I do believe it's kind of positive in it's own unique way.
Do you ever feel relentlessly negative?
or is it just me?

Yes, I am still alive. Barely.

Hi there,

I am crawling out from behind the rock.
Even though I shouldn't be,
but I deserve the break to write something other than study notes.

I am exhausted;
 it's unbelievable how tiring studying is.

My brain is frazzled.

I have my final final final exam on Monday.

I will be done with school forever.
Technically.

After Monday I will be bombarding you with a countless number of blog posts.

It will be great.

I'll try not to be as sad as today though;
I don't mean to be so depressing but I do try to be as honest as I can.

I am finding school very challenging at the moment, not with the work as much as with the people. I am the person who has mood swings. I have the homesickness bouts. I have bad days. I'm not nice all the time, but I know that I do I try my hardest not to take it out on everyone around me. I try so hard not to bring other people down, not to show my mood to anyone else. I don't want to bother everyone with my problems, that's what this blog is for. Everyone is having a hard time in their own way, I don't want to bog everyone down with my concerns.

I have been trying to be in good spirits during these exams. I have been stressed out beyond anything, but relatively balanced with regards to my moods and have been able to conceal my frustration quite well I might add. I know that showing my troubles isn't going to help anyone, not even myself, cause I am still going to have an exam on Monday, regardleses of how much I cry about it, it will still be waiting for me on Monday morning.

My friends all seem to be on a roller coaster that's only going down. (I hate roller coasters more than anything, in case you were wondering). I know exams are terrible. They really are very horrible. I am struggling to stay positive. But with everyone around me being so down I am finding it very difficult indeed. The negativity is exhausting. It's overwhelmingly gloomy.

I wish everyone would be lovely to each other, not super friendly or anything. Just a small smile or a 'hello' would do. I just think exams would be a lot easier to get through if we supported each other more. 

My friendships all seem to be falling apart. I wish it wasn't that way, but it is. I understand that it is coming to the end of our school careers and we now have the luxury of being able to completely ignore each other for the rest of our lives if we choose to do so. I really think we shouldn't do that, not just yet, after school yes, fine, I get that. But we still have some time left now, and we are wasting it feeling sorry for ourselves, including myself. I wish everyone could see that.

I don't have an ideal reputation with regards to loving this school. But I can't say I haven't enjoyed my time here. I have made friends that I will always remember, even if we don't keep in contact, they have made a lasting impact on my life. I hope after exams are done everyone cheers up a bit and starts talking again. I do miss the people that were there before, but a lot of them seem very different now. I do wonder if it will ever be the same as it was before this term. Last term was really great, it was probably my best term ever at this school. Now everyone is extremely negative, and I don't want to be negative, not now.

Studying is very dull and I always feel like I don't know enough. I make so many study notes, I am not sure if it is a form of procrastination but it does take a lot of time. I am sure that I am taking in some of the things I am writing when I am making the notes, however, I feel completely deflated and hopeless at the end of everyday. I lie in bed thinking about what I have to do the next day. I always feel as though I have accomplished nothing, even when I have.

Now that I have almost submerged myself in my sorrows, quickly, before I drown, I should mention  something that is positive, the weather. I know that this is an extremely mundane topic, regardless, it has actually helped me this week. It has been quite nice every day, not perfect, this is still Scotland, but pleasant enough. The light has been so beautiful, in comparison to the indistinct and almost lifeless air normally. I stuck my little head out my window to watch the sunset and take photos of it too a few times this week, the wind was even soft on my face kind of graceful and lady-like. The changing light is actually so hopeful in the evening, almost mystical. My photograph's don't do it justice at all. It's a feeling more than anything else, it's everything about that time of day. The morning light that wakes you up is bright white, it isn't nice when you first wake up, but after you're a little more awake it's so uplifting. If it's a nice day everything seems to be better, pathetic fallacy of course. 

The miserable Scottish weather has again graced us with it's presence today though, note the sad post. The rain hasn't stopped pouring, the wind hasn't stopped blowing it in every direction. My mood has been rotten, it's dark and cold and horrible, I hate feeling like this.

In the last little while though it has felt still and very quiet. I am feeling a little calmer. 

And then "BAM!!!" my next door neighbour slams her door. 

Lovely.

I love boarding school. 

I shall return to my studies at once. 

See you next week.

Rest in Peace

It's on days like today when I realise how much love people are capable of.

People can love so much.

People do love so much.

We need to share our love though.

We need to let people know that they are loved, 

while they are still with us.

This love makes me cry.

We need to stop for a moment and appreciate this love.

The amount of love shared in statuses on Facebook and Twitter about Phaks make me feel as though I knew him.

I read this on twitter today:

'Life isn't fair. It's just fairer than death.'

I wish I got to meet you Phaks.

You left too soon.

Once a Saint always a Saint.

May your soul Rest in Peace.

My Weekend in Edinburgh.

Hi there,

I spent the weekend in Edinburgh with my two very good friends.

We had a great time.

It was good to get out of school and forget about exams for the two days.

But now it's back to studying.

This will probably be my last post until I'm finished my exams of the 20th.

Yikes.

Thats's two weeks today.

We bumped into some friends from school. How cute is this photograph? It makes me so happy. It isn't posed and I love that. Such cuties.

Shona and I. I'm being affectionate. How cute. haha

I think this photograph is so funny. We both are smiling quite oddly... Hmm but I still think it is so lovely.

How much does this make you love the Royal Mile?

I want a red door on my house one day, or my apartment, or flat? Or wherever I might end up.

The number one most sold soft drink in Scotland, with Coca Cola being number one in every country except Scotland and the Middle East. And the Bank of Scotland to in the corner. Quintessentially Scotland, this photo should be called.

Shona getting a cute snap of Lydia and I.

Too funny...

I love red.

Sometimes I forget how beautiful the architecture is in Edinburgh.

The buildings are so strong and bold. Tasteful and full of character. Everything is so lovely.

The churches in the UK never fail to amaze me, despite this one not being a church anymore and rather a weird gallery... The outside is still dazzling.

This is near the castle where my camera soon lost it's battery. Pity you never got to see the castle. It's so lovely but I posted a few photos on Instagram for you to see, if you want to :)  

The wind was crazy near the castle.

I miss my doggies... This dog looks so much bigger than mine. But it might be because we are in the city. 

I love old people. I can never understand how people are scared of them? One day we will get older too. 

What beautiful friends I have.

What a lovely day it was.

I love these two.

You always have to do a feet picture. I never will get this, but I do it constantly. I always feel like people cannot miss out on my shoes, most of the time they are the best part of my outfit.

Look.

I love my red converse too too much.

I hate bagpipes. But this guy was kind of cute and I really thought this would make a nice photo.